You keep extending that gift of your name, I’ll keep taking it. Holding it. That’s something you can count on.
Same goes for my staying. Being with you still, however the capacity.
I’m not one for casting aside what’s valued. Meaning more directly I value you, and your name as well.
Worth saying I’m not asking any promises, nor expecting any. Only I’m here for whatever follows. You’ve got my friendship here on out, yeah? You’ve got your Vevay
[ … ]
Full-on adorable kid, your boy.
He’s beautiful, no feigning. Got your smile and all.
…Shite.
You with him, talking about him I fuckingAh, that’s me lost five to ten times over now, and I’d guess that count’s ever-increasing
Sergiy. Good name, just as well.
Any pics with him and Dodo?
[ … ]
[ … ]
Wretch of a situation, all of that. Good he’s not been taken from you fully. Good you’re looking after him as you can, and I wager it’s a lot for him, knowing you’re there. Knowing he’s got a da’d never leave.
Aye. That’s no small thing at any angle.
He looks happy with you, also.
[ … ]
[ … ]
Look while we’re [ … ] speaking in this vein. [ … ] Reason I was ever married, yeah? There was a time Imy fking my brother-who-was got hisself killed. His wife took it badly, fair enough to her, but their kids caught the fall out.
My nephew, my niece. Took em in, yeah? Never mind the one’s who’d birthed me hadn’t spoke in [ … ] Good kids. Young then, very.
Had a girlfriend at the time. Laid it all out for her, expected her fully to split, but she didn’t back down a moment. Stayed with me, stayed with them. Worked all right, some ways better than, until the day the woman’d bore em came back, decides she wants them after all. Not much we could do, finances being what they are and the law bending very much against us. We cut the marriage soon after. No fault of hers. No fault of mine, I guess, either. Not truly, and fact is we were always better off acquaintances.
[ … ]
Went to her wedding this winter last. That’s a fact. Happy for her and pleased to see her happy, that’s also truth. People find their people, won’t begrudge that for a moment. My melancholy’s for what’s wanted and not been found, or hadn’t been found untilAh, fuck
[ … ]
You do a lot for kids, is what I mean, and gladly.
[ … ]
Fuck. Don’t want to turn you separate from your boy
Sergiy.
[ … ]
Full disclosure. Been speaking with Sen. About you, a bit, just now and in the half hour or like before. Something he said, message following just after you [ … ] first said it about the being married. Thing is he brought it up hisself. You been married, yeah, but he spoke it like a past tense thing, like you having been that.
Not going to mention to him the continued marriage, or your Sergiy. Fuckin nah, of course not. That’s yours for the saying or not saying, of course it is, and no shaming either way. Don’t know whether you knew he doesn’t know, is the only thing.
[ … ]
Words and friendship can be a lot. Can be worlds, and I’ll venture in this case, between us, it’s worlds, confirmed.
Maybe not all I wish, or— Nay. Best say clear it isn’t all I’d wish. But it’s better than enough to live on.
And know happiness in, yes.
I’d like you to be happy, Talik. Like to think I can give you something of the sort, or else at the least help you with finding it.
And I mean to keep writing, speaking your name, like said, long as you’ll permit me.
no subject
You sure that’s a good idea, me saying
Fuck, who am I to query what I want and
Talik.
You keep extending that gift of your name, I’ll keep taking it. Holding it. That’s something you can count on.
Same goes for my staying. Being with you still, however the capacity.
I’m not one for casting aside what’s valued. Meaning more directly I value you, and your name as well.
Worth saying I’m not asking any promises, nor expecting any. Only I’m here for whatever follows. You’ve got my friendship here on out, yeah?
You’ve got your Vevay[ … ]
Full-on adorable kid, your boy.
He’s beautiful, no feigning. Got your smile and all.
…Shite.
You with him, talking about him I fuckingAh, that’s me lost five to ten times over now, and I’d guess that count’s ever-increasingSergiy. Good name, just as well.
Any pics with him and Dodo?
[ … ]
[ … ]
Wretch of a situation, all of that. Good he’s not been taken from you fully. Good you’re looking after him as you can, and I wager it’s a lot for him, knowing you’re there. Knowing he’s got a da’d never leave.
Aye. That’s no small thing at any angle.
He looks happy with you, also.
[ … ]
[ … ]
Look while we’re [ … ] speaking in this vein. [ … ] Reason I was ever married, yeah? There was a time
Imy fkingmy brother-who-was got hisself killed. His wife took it badly, fair enough to her, but their kids caught the fall out.My nephew, my niece. Took em in, yeah?
Never mind the one’s who’d birthed me hadn’t spoke in[ … ] Good kids. Young then, very.Had a girlfriend at the time. Laid it all out for her, expected her fully to split, but she didn’t back down a moment. Stayed with me, stayed with them. Worked all right, some ways better than, until the day the woman’d bore em came back, decides she wants them after all. Not much we could do, finances being what they are and the law bending very much against us. We cut the marriage soon after. No fault of hers. No fault of mine, I guess, either. Not truly, and fact is we were always better off acquaintances.
[ … ]
Went to her wedding this winter last. That’s a fact. Happy for her and pleased to see her happy, that’s also truth. People find their people, won’t begrudge that for a moment.
My melancholy’s for what’s wanted and not been found, or hadn’t been found untilAh, fuck[ … ]
You do a lot for kids, is what I mean, and gladly.
[ … ]
Fuck. Don’t want to turn you separate from your boy
Sergiy.
[ … ]
Full disclosure. Been speaking with Sen. About you, a bit, just now and in the half hour or like before. Something he said, message following just after you [ … ] first said it about the being married. Thing is he brought it up hisself. You been married, yeah, but he spoke it like a past tense thing, like you having been that.
Not going to mention to him the continued marriage, or your Sergiy. Fuckin nah, of course not. That’s yours for the saying or not saying, of course it is, and no shaming either way. Don’t know whether you knew he doesn’t know, is the only thing.
[ … ]
Words and friendship can be a lot. Can be worlds, and I’ll venture in this case, between us, it’s worlds, confirmed.
Maybe not all I wish, or— Nay. Best say clear it isn’t all I’d wish. But it’s better than enough to live on.
And know happiness in, yes.
I’d like you to be happy, Talik. Like to think I can give you something of the sort, or else at the least help you with finding it.
And I mean to keep writing, speaking your name, like said, long as you’ll permit me.