[ This might have turned toward devastation. Darius himself might have reeled from smarting self-loathing into fury, into lashing venomous at Sen, at Vitaly, at anyone within the reach of texting. Might have retreated to his own company, cutting off communications, absconding from the city, from the country, to vent his rage upon the world.
Might have, before Enri.
Might have, without Enri’s arms around him, Enri’s tender support; without knowing he could and always can trust to his Love - nearly, ah, so nearly his husband! - to meet him, hold him, shield doubts away and guard him from the sharpest storms, the sting of his own teeth.
There’s nothing more sustaining than his Enri’s voice at his ear, Enri’s words gifting precisely what can settle Darius’s storm. Nothing more sustaining than to breathe the scent of his Love and mirror the rhythm of his breath, as Enri’s touch cards perfect, assuasive through Darius’s hair. Nothing more sustaining than a kiss to the nose that leaves Darius half-smiling, the hurt not gone but softened, brought back into perspective. The world isn’t ending and needn’t end. Nothing’s been broken entirely, and Enri, his Enri will always be here, and with him. ]
[ … ]
So it is.
His mother. [ … ] Moira.
[ … ]
Fuck me for forgetting, I
That’s reason enough for his [ … ] absconding. His aggravation with me.
[ … ]
I don’t
[ … ]
I don’t like to be [ … ] at odds with him. Not now, in particular, when our wedding is so close.
I
The last time I laid vitriol that struck him, it was weeks before we truly
The last time I gave Rin cause for ire regarding Sen, it
[ … ]
You’re correct, Vitaly; this habit of cloaking hurt in joking bears discussion.
Just as you’re correct to hold approaching Senan for a later date. It isn’t what he needs just now. [ … ] It isn’t at all what he or his mother’s memory merits.
That leeway. Of course it’s his right. I’ll speak with him, if he’ll permit it.
You’re with your cousin?
[ … ]
I’ve only just now registered your remark regarding Nova and hot showers.
Fuck’s sake, Vitaly.
Granted, I’ve neither room for nor intention of begrudging you that reference, or anything it spoke to.
[ … ]
[ … ]
Something for your consideration. There are a number of guests coming from outside of the city. A number of them have secured less than optimal accommodations; I assume in accordance with either finances or availability of rooms. It is my intention to see these rooms improved on, with no need to advertise the fact beforehand.
The first related point: I’ve no idea whether you’ve found a place, but you’re welcome to settle yourself into one of my apartments through the duration of your stay. You know I have no shortage to choose from, and it strikes me as the least that I can do. The least of what I’d like to do, as well.
The second point. Nova’s is among the reservations I’ve sighted for revision. If this is a fact you’d like to take to your own hands, you need only say it.
[ … ]
Perhaps another point for your consideration, or simply [ … ] a fact I haven’t stated.
no subject
Might have, before Enri.
Might have, without Enri’s arms around him, Enri’s tender support; without knowing he could and always can trust to his Love - nearly, ah, so nearly his husband! - to meet him, hold him, shield doubts away and guard him from the sharpest storms, the sting of his own teeth.
There’s nothing more sustaining than his Enri’s voice at his ear, Enri’s words gifting precisely what can settle Darius’s storm. Nothing more sustaining than to breathe the scent of his Love and mirror the rhythm of his breath, as Enri’s touch cards perfect, assuasive through Darius’s hair. Nothing more sustaining than a kiss to the nose that leaves Darius half-smiling, the hurt not gone but softened, brought back into perspective. The world isn’t ending and needn’t end. Nothing’s been broken entirely, and Enri, his Enri will always be here, and with him. ]
[ … ]
So it is.
His mother. [ … ] Moira.
[ … ]
Fuck me for forgetting, IThat’s reason enough for his [ … ] absconding. His aggravation with me.
[ … ]
I don’t[ … ]
I don’t like to be [ … ] at odds with him. Not now, in particular, when our wedding is so close.
I
The last time I laid vitriol that struck him, it was weeks before we truly
The last time I gave Rin cause for ire regarding Sen, it
[ … ]
You’re correct, Vitaly; this habit of cloaking hurt in joking bears discussion.
Just as you’re correct to hold approaching Senan for a later date. It isn’t what he needs just now. [ … ] It isn’t at all what he or his mother’s memory merits.
That leeway. Of course it’s his right. I’ll speak with him, if he’ll permit it.
You’re with your cousin?
[ … ]
I’ve only just now registered your remark regarding Nova and hot showers.
Fuck’s sake, Vitaly.
Granted, I’ve neither room for nor intention of begrudging you that reference, or anything it spoke to.
[ … ]
[ … ]
Something for your consideration. There are a number of guests coming from outside of the city. A number of them have secured less than optimal accommodations; I assume in accordance with either finances or availability of rooms. It is my intention to see these rooms improved on, with no need to advertise the fact beforehand.
The first related point: I’ve no idea whether you’ve found a place, but you’re welcome to settle yourself into one of my apartments through the duration of your stay. You know I have no shortage to choose from, and it strikes me as the least that I can do. The least of what I’d like to do, as well.
The second point. Nova’s is among the reservations I’ve sighted for revision. If this is a fact you’d like to take to your own hands, you need only say it.
[ … ]
Perhaps another point for your consideration, or simply [ … ] a fact I haven’t stated.
I have missed you.
I’ll be glad to see you again.