[ A space of silence again. In this, Enri staring at the words Darius sent, and then looking slightly right, as though to see -
Whether he's being observed. Whether someone might spot him indulging in something he's not permitted. (Seeking anyone who might come along and laugh. Who might call him a dumb fuck for wanting to believe Darius.)
He has to. He has to remember, this is only for now. This is only for the week (which is now shorter, which is so much shorter than he wanted it to be), and when it's over, no one's going to tell him not to apologize. No one's going to say he's not 'a dull young man'.
But. It feels good.
To have Darius's approval.
No one needs to know. ]
[...]
i know a few.
other languages.
[...]
latin, french, russian (can't write that one though, no keyboard for cyrillic)
[...]
german.
some arabic, but i wasn't there too long. enough to order food and ask for directions or tell someone to drop their weapon i guess. (can't write that one at all)
trying to learn cantonese but if greek is a 'relative rarity' then chinese is a unicorn in iowa.
[...]
my brother says it [...] gives us the opportunity to be dumbasses in multiple countries.
[...] his name's Felix
[ And then, recalling his earlier comment about a lie he couldn't rectify, Enri offers a piece of information rarely shared. Thinking -
Not thinking at all.
(But wouldn't it be nice. Not to have secrets from Daddy. No lies, nothing hidden? Only them, and pure honesty?) ]
no subject
Whether he's being observed. Whether someone might spot him indulging in something he's not permitted. (Seeking anyone who might come along and laugh. Who might call him a dumb fuck for wanting to believe Darius.)
He has to. He has to remember, this is only for now. This is only for the week (which is now shorter, which is so much shorter than he wanted it to be), and when it's over, no one's going to tell him not to apologize. No one's going to say he's not 'a dull young man'.
But. It feels good.
To have Darius's approval.
No one needs to know. ]
[...]
i know a few.
other languages.
[...]
latin, french, russian (can't write that one though, no keyboard for cyrillic)
[...]
german.
some arabic, but i wasn't there too long. enough to order food and ask for directions or tell someone to drop their weapon i guess. (can't write that one at all)
trying to learn cantonese but if greek is a 'relative rarity' then chinese is a unicorn in iowa.
[...]
my brother says it [...] gives us the opportunity to be dumbasses in multiple countries.
[...] his name's Felix
[ And then, recalling his earlier comment about a lie he couldn't rectify, Enri offers a piece of information rarely shared. Thinking -
Not thinking at all.
(But wouldn't it be nice. Not to have secrets from Daddy. No lies, nothing hidden? Only them, and pure honesty?) ]
we're twins.