The locales, you’re right it’s not so strict a tangent.
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At risk of spillin overmuch in too small a time, or it’s true there’s no risk in it, not with you, I’m thinking.
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Lived around Harrogate most my life, aye? Those early years took shapes nearer Essex, and there’ve been here and there months itinerant abroad, but those’ve been more rare than common, and my meaning’s I’ve made my life here and made my self known here. Won’t say there’ve not been troubles and won’t say it wasn’t a handful of scrapping early on, but I’ve got the troubling in hand years since, and for the main, folks around here’ve no quarrel with me.
Me being a man given to romantic relations regardless of gender, and me being a man who’s not always been called as such, and makes no secret of the facts.
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Put it more direct, I’m a man, given, and I’m a man who’s trans, given as well. Small as this village is and its environs are, most folks here know as much and’ve come to accept its knowing. My knowing, aye. Means the road’s been not so rocky these last years, less immediate objecting to myself, more seeing me for the man I mean to be and am, have always been.
Not sure how I’ll translate elsewhere, is part my meaning and part my eh wariness. It’s nothing I ain’t equal to. Nothing not to be worked out or figured through, and I’ve no qualms about my capacity for this figuring. I’ve habits, might say strong developed talents of keeping up a front for those come bearing teeth to tear.
Just might need encouragement at times. Holding, aye, and reminding myself I ain’t so wrongheaded. Say it again, there’s knowing logically and there’s knowing in belief, and takes some time and working to unite. Meaning as well I know what I am and know the right in being it, the good in stating and showing it clear. Just sometimes crawl up into my head about myself and get a little tangled, aye.
You untangle me. Here and now you do, and have, and so I trust you will. Only [ … ] so you know, it’s not something entirely behind me.
Aye and related to which, can’t say I know how it’ll complicate your own affairs. I’d venture saying any media vultures given to harping on about the virtues of the het life might also take a dip to stances on the place of being trans, and taking partners with a man who’s trans.
Which I’d guess you’ve thought already. Bright man and thoughtful, that you are. You’d call none of this an obstacle, that much I believe and know with surety, only I’d feel [ … ] ill met, to reach for you without putting it clear, or clear as I can state it.
The rest of the malaise related’s got to do with experience spoke generally, about travel and traversing with those beyond one’s immediate countryfolk. Has as well to do with eh familiarity with money and its language or else its methods, which I’ll say and you’ve likely guessed, I’ve little enough to my counting. There’s plenty experience I’ve not had much brush with. Plenty I’ve yet to learn, and I’m not the least opposed to learning, but there’s knowledges and etiquettes I lack.
Also to say, there’s a lot of ways I might be reckoned less than, might be sighted as a target. None that I’d think in your holding, but your knowing the nonsense won’t stop others honing in.
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That’s part of what I mean, aye. [ … ] And there’s the kids as well, and what I’ve failed in doing.
Figure that’s enough gloom or and doom for the moment being. None of what I’ve said here’s, eh [ … ] much I take to speaking regular. But fact remains I’d rather you know, have the heads up. Be able to measure for yourself whether your Vevay’s worth the
Fact remains as well it’s true you soothe me, true you reach me where and ways no other’s near approached.
There’s no better ease for my heart than your words or your self.
And no better place, I’ll dare and I’ll say, for your words, for your self than my heart.
3/3
[ … ]
At risk of spillin overmuch in too small a time, or it’s true there’s no risk in it, not with you, I’m thinking.
[ … ]
Lived around Harrogate most my life, aye? Those early years took shapes nearer Essex, and there’ve been here and there months itinerant abroad, but those’ve been more rare than common, and my meaning’s I’ve made my life here and made my self known here. Won’t say there’ve not been troubles and won’t say it wasn’t a handful of scrapping early on, but I’ve got the troubling in hand years since, and for the main, folks around here’ve no quarrel with me.
Me being a man given to romantic relations regardless of gender, and me being a man who’s not always been called as such, and makes no secret of the facts.
[ … ]
Put it more direct, I’m a man, given, and I’m a man who’s trans, given as well. Small as this village is and its environs are, most folks here know as much and’ve come to accept its knowing. My knowing, aye. Means the road’s been not so rocky these last years, less immediate objecting to myself, more seeing me for the man I mean to be and am, have always been.
Not sure how I’ll translate elsewhere, is part my meaning and part my eh wariness. It’s nothing I ain’t equal to. Nothing not to be worked out or figured through, and I’ve no qualms about my capacity for this figuring. I’ve habits, might say strong developed talents of keeping up a front for those come bearing teeth to tear.
Just might need encouragement at times. Holding, aye, and reminding myself I ain’t so wrongheaded. Say it again, there’s knowing logically and there’s knowing in belief, and takes some time and working to unite. Meaning as well I know what I am and know the right in being it, the good in stating and showing it clear. Just sometimes crawl up into my head about myself and get a little tangled, aye.
You untangle me. Here and now you do, and have, and so I trust you will. Only [ … ] so you know, it’s not something entirely behind me.
Aye and related to which, can’t say I know how it’ll complicate your own affairs. I’d venture saying any media vultures given to harping on about the virtues of the het life might also take a dip to stances on the place of being trans, and taking partners with a man who’s trans.
Which I’d guess you’ve thought already. Bright man and thoughtful, that you are. You’d call none of this an obstacle, that much I believe and know with surety, only I’d feel [ … ] ill met, to reach for you without putting it clear, or clear as I can state it.
The rest of the malaise related’s got to do with experience spoke generally, about travel and traversing with those beyond one’s immediate countryfolk. Has as well to do with eh familiarity with money and its language or else its methods, which I’ll say and you’ve likely guessed, I’ve little enough to my counting. There’s plenty experience I’ve not had much brush with. Plenty I’ve yet to learn, and I’m not the least opposed to learning, but there’s knowledges and etiquettes I lack.
Also to say, there’s a lot of ways I might be reckoned less than, might be sighted as a target. None that I’d think in your holding, but your knowing the nonsense won’t stop others honing in.
[ … ]
That’s part of what I mean, aye. [ … ] And there’s the kids as well, and what I’ve failed in doing.
Figure that’s enough gloom or and doom for the moment being. None of what I’ve said here’s, eh [ … ] much I take to speaking regular. But fact remains I’d rather you know, have the heads up.
Be able to measure for yourself whether your Vevay’s worth theFact remains as well it’s true you soothe me, true you reach me where and ways no other’s near approached.
There’s no better ease for my heart than your words or your self.
And no better place, I’ll dare and I’ll say, for your words, for your self than my heart.