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onefellswoop) wrote in kingdomsofrain2024-01-24 08:25 pm
next morning 3/3
Right
First fuckin
TALIK
Apt to spend the next hour lying here flat to floor, knocked me out's what you did straight the fuck away and here I've just woke up
j e s u s
Jesus fuckin wepT went all in for that one ey?? (Aye as if I believe that's all the game you've got christ almighty who's gonna kill who hey??)
Can't say ain't fair play to yourself nor that I didn't ask it down on me
Saying that like it ain't a blessing, what you said š„“
Sayin that like I've not read the translation five times over and like all you said's not entered the halls of my desiring
Fuck me. Aye and here again I mean it all ways, fuck me.
All that. All that you said, aye and thank yoU, best not be idle words Talik >:o
Nah, not idle at all, that I'm sure of š„“š„“š„“
Going to ruin me, you. S h i t E
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This, after leaving his Talik languishing for an entire day, but who can call this a crime worthy of such a punishment?
c:
Good morning, ŠŗŠ¾Ń Š°Š½ŠøŠ¹.
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No, you should know how I would say it in either language.
Let me help. Here.
[ 'Here' being an accurate, poetic, and somewhat graphic translation of what he wrote the night before.
Sent very quickly.
Clearly, he had it waiting and ready to go. ]
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[...]
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Oh, Vevay. I'm sorry; I should have kept awake last night. I never would have left you to that void. My Nova.
Are you well this morning? [...] Aside from my goodbye kiss, I mean.
Please, ŠŗŠ¾Ń Š°Š½ŠøŠ¹. If I don't respond to your messages and you need me, or even if you don't need me, but feel this void again, call me. I don't turn my phone off this way at night; I always answer.
I might not be completely awake, but I'll answer.
It's your place, yes? You have a right to call me whenever you need me. Even if all is well now or if it will pass - or even if you didn't think of it last night, I'm saying it's so now. Until I can be beside you, call me when you feel this way.
You aren't alone, Vevay. Never again are you alone.
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I mean placing pressure where it might help convince minds to see your way of thinking.
We'll look at the situation first, you and I together. Once we know what we know, then I'll give you some choices and you can tell me what you think is best for this.
Don't worry. We'll hire someone to look into things. It's easier this way than to try and send in familiar faces - and I can ask Iryna to help. She can get into locked phones, and she can do other such things on social media.
Or to internet services.Enri perhaps, also.
Trust your Talik. š
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[...]
What means 'twink'?
[...]
FuckI know that isn't right.
It's early.
[...]
What is meaning
How
What does 'twink' mean?
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Shock to the system gifted by his Talik, aye, his Vitaly.
x.x x.x x.x
Howād you go and make it more excruciating, giving me that English? Sayin it again, j e s u s.
Eh but youāre on about google translate. Itās got none of your verve. None of your passion, not your poetry.
[ ā¦ ]
Truth, Iāll be expecting your palm a stroke against my cock. Want you against me, in me, that as well, and holding me throughout.
No telling what youāll learn about your Vevay, when all this comes to pass.
Christ alive Talik Iām meant to be headed off to work and here all can thinkās how well Iād like to be ensconced upon your cock. š„“ Light and shadows, holy fuckin revelry.
Callin it, Iām heading over late this day. Rewiring can hold on for a few til Iāve got it in myself to stand again without wobbling over.
An eternity of expiration and reunifying at your hands, canāt say I begrudge the thought.
Guess Iāll be bringing you the same, just as well.
Much to be dreamt on, my Talik. Much to be anticipated, aye, in utmost and dare I say it agonizing, wondrously agonizing eagerness. c; š§”
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Nah, jesting, as Iāve not a doubt youāre asking earnest. About ātwink,ā I mean, eh, fuck me.
Fact of the matter is a twink proper speakingād be more like half my age and more exclusively into anyone who knows hisself as a man or masc than my pan self admits, but. Eh, got the body type for it, thereās that. Looks good from outside, if not happens the brightest, speaking for thought capacities.
To my credit, the termās taken on more leeway of late, or has farās I can tell. Might be Iāve no eh ātrueā claim to the idea, but fact is it keeps coming back to association with myself from outside, and fact is I like it well enough from my own viewing.
Aye well and, aged as I am and aged as I sometimes feel, and even accounting for the hairs thatāve set themselves to grey, canāt say thereās not some small aspect of youthfulness I embody, hey?
Right, recognizing Iāve given no definition of the word or nothing like. So put it briefly, young (or youthful!) man with habits toward the charms of other men or masculine folks, slight of build and eh, often prone to fits of either self displaying or the dramatic.
Likesaid, doesnāt fit entire, happens, but it aināt full fledged misplaced either. And it pleases me, so Iāll take it on myself, on top of knowing its been given to me, and not only through decades past.
Well and here.
Iām your boyfriend, so. Why not let Vevay be yr twink as well? c;
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That voidās always nigh for stumbling against, get me? Itās nothing canāt be eased. Itās nothing doesnāt clear up with a nightās sleep, and whatās helped hereās reading your words and playing for myself a while.
Iāll keep that to me, what you said about calling. And Iāll keep it in my notice, if it comes to needing.
[ ā¦ ]
Hazard is Iām thinking Iāll always need you, Talik. But then I do know my limits, what Iāve got and canāt get sorted on my own.
ā¦Canāt say thereās no appeal in it, the thought of your voice half caught sleeping.
That said, thereās ease alone in knowing youāre there. As was the case this night last. Knew youād be with me come morning. Knew the words I sent wouldnāt keep unread or without answer. Thereās nothing in me needs immediate response, not often, not typically at all. The fact of knowing youāre htere and will be there
Aye, thatās plenty on its own.
Still and all, here me acknowledging and hereās me writing into memory, if all pulls too sharp, Iāll call you, and not worry too overmuch about distressing your sleep.
That is, Iāll fret about it some, thereās no help for that. But Iāll know what youād prefer, and Iāll know youād not leave me when I need you, and when the nightās gone voiceless. When I need nearer sign itās not myself against the night, or when knowledge aloneās not enough to fight what gnaws.
My Talik. Iāll be right enough, and Iām plenty all right now, apart from this fact of being compromised in ways no voice can ease, ey? Got your words to keep me through the day. Got the realness of yourself to catch around me, and think, eleven days now.
Only eleven days. š§”š§”
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[ ā¦ ]
Iād like that, to talk it through. Review what options might be reached for, what might be most effective or efficient.
Donāt know much wrt Irynaās talents or [ ā¦ ] Enriās? (He got a facility for those locked phones and beyond, then?)
I do know I trust you, your own self, Talik. I know thereās nothing youād venture nor a thing youād afford without thought, without [ ā¦ ] cognizance of what Iād asked, and what my children might need.
Pressureās got itās place, thatās so. Particularly in the case of those who live theirselves beyond the touch of law.
[ ā¦ ]
Wonāt say it doesnāt help, your saying this. Your speaking clear with me, and showing [ ā¦ ] youāve no shame against methods more and less, say, generous.
Itās a world of good you do me, and far beyond.
And Iāll rest easier one way or another, knowing Nicky and Liza or well, or else knowing that theyāll be well, whatever [ ā¦ ] circumstances dictate now.
[ ā¦ ]
Fuckin. Said youād make a sound father.
The truth of it only comes clearer. My beautiful and brilliant hearted, warm souled Talik. What was the world before you, hey? Less, and lacking. Less, but waiting, aye, waiting for be found and grown.
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ŃŠµŠ±ŃŃŠ°ŃŠŗŠ°.
I like ŠŠ°ŃŃ Š¾ŃŠŗŠ° better for talking of that kind; the first one means for children, also, so it has some negative connotation.
ŠŠ°ŃŃ Š¾ŃŠŗŠ° doesnāt mean all the things you say, though.
No dramatics. Itās only a young man who likes -
[ā¦]
Forgive me, this isnāt a conversation I have in English often.
Itās a young man who [ā¦] receives. ŃŠ·Ń the word for it.
[ā¦]
Bottom.
But this word, it means āvelvetā, also. You can draw conclusions why.
Does twink mean this, also, or is it both bottom and top?
[ā¦]
Now I want to see how you look undressed; youāre speaking in very high terms about your body for such a decrepit old man.
You donāt look even a little so, Vevay. I thought maybe you were 36, 37?
Eh, how old are you? And! When are you born.
No, this is wrong -
You see how it is for me in the morning? Aroused and not speaking English well.
This is your problem to deal with from now on. š Better learn Ukrainian quick.
[ā¦]
When is your birthday? There, thatās correct.
Me, mine is June 28. Iāll have 45 years.
[ā¦]
FuckingI will BE 45 years.Maybe Iāll have a twink for my birthday?š„³
[ā¦]
Vevay -
Do you prefer to be this? Bottom, not twink.
I donāt mind to top. I like both fine. But itās fun to give; I can do more other things at the same time.
Would you want to know the word for a man who prefers to be top?
ŃŠ¾ŠæŃŃŠ½.
One who tramples.
All this in Russian, not Ukrainian. Itās more common to hear that in Kyiv.
They arenāt polite, the words, but they arenāt so [ā¦] slurs? Derogatory. They arenāt this so much. Like āqueerā maybe. Depends who says them.
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About your brightness and thought capacity.
[ā¦]
Enri has been texting me this week, telling me all about how Darius āfucks him stupidā.
For some people, maybe this is easy to do because they already have very little intelligence. (Not Enri, just some people.)
So Iāll say it this way:
Vevay, I will fuck you stupid if you want, but it will take a lot of effort and I might die of exertion.
You are intelligent.
My perfect, intelligent twink. c:
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You can need me. Iād like to need you, too, so that makes it equal and good, doesnāt it?
I mean what I say, ŠŗŠ¾Ń Š°Š½ŠøŠ¹. If you feel that way again, call me. Eventually, Iāll sleep beside you and all youāll ever have to do is reach for me, isnāt that so? Calling is the same; itās just reaching for me at night.
[ā¦]
I like this thought. Vevay, sleeping with you would be wonderful. Even if you snore! I told you I talk in my sleep, but I sleep like Iām dead unless my phone rings or someone shakes me. Eh, and my brother snores. This doesnāt bother me.
[ā¦]
Eleven days and some more besides until I sleep together with you.
And some more besides this, but soon, youāll see Nicky and Liza, and Iāll see my son.
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You speak of methods that arenāt generous like maybe you worry I will have some trouble with them.
[ā¦]
Maybe we should both consider weāre friends with Darius, and what that means about how we deal with people who give us trouble.
I prefer altruism and kindness. Most of the time, people can see reason if you take the time.
Kindness, reason, and altruism arenāt always effective. Sometimes you have to appeal to a personās desire to survive.
Whatās important is that I would never do anything to cause pain to your children. No trauma, no suffering of any kind.
I would prefer to give your sister-in-law money.
Or make her situation such that she would be relieved to have two less āburdensā.
There, my first and second instincts.
I wonāt lie to you, though, ŠŗŠ¾Ń Š°Š½ŠøŠ¹: Iāve done worse things to better people. I told you about the tooth, and what Iāve done here. The world is ugly and sometimes so is your Talik.
[ā¦]
Can you live with me, knowing this?
Please, know thereās nothing you could do that would offend me. You and I feel the same where it matters most, isnāt that so? Children should be guarded and loved, and generosity should be the first resort?
And also, fuck the government?
1/?
Right, full disclosure, had to look up the word, both words but Iām meaning the first, came across thatā¦ whatās it a mouse of some sort? Looks a bit like it might fuck up a man, and I aināt saying that mouseās Bloodlust, but then I aināt saying it aināt.
Eh, Iād say keep that between you and I, but first off youāre not the blabbing sort, and second, donāt knowās I care whether the man knows I said it. Not my fault heās a creature of sorts, and tbf itās more to his credit than otherwise.
Point Iām getting at, not sure in the applying of ātwinkā to Sen or Darius. Sen or anyrate Sen of old might notāve turned it running, have to ask him on that. My hunch is Dariusād eschew the word, he and his lord n saviour Daddy complex.
For myself itās a matter of claiming, makin the word my own as well as something broader in application, aye? Way I speak it on myself, itās half a state of mind and mode of self presenting. Something of light heartedness. Something to being apt for a good dicking down, that also.
[ ā¦ ]
Well aye and thereās the intelligence bit. Honed in on that remark of mine, ey? Pair myself against a Sen or a Darius, got to be admitted thereās myself falling short in the mental gymnastics. But Iāll give you that Iām not so hopeless, happens.
Feels less so talking with yourself, eh, and not to say the Shitheadsāve given cause for thinking otherwise. Itās the selfāll gnaw a man, ken. Eh, the self and most the folks said man meets beyond godās own country as they call it.
Pertinent point being, youāve a handy talent for making you Vevay feel real bright about himself.
And Iām staking and saying it now, Iād like to see you go about fucking me stupid, yes indeed and all thanks to you. š„“š§”
On that note and far as preferences go, Iāve practice with bottom and top alike and find allures to both, but my heartās most and most often in taking it. Receiving, aye, though Iāll not have it being said Iām the passive pillow sort in this regard. c;
Not opposed to playing the power bottom here and there, nor likesaid taking top. But you want to trample me, youāll find not one argument from your Vevay.
[ ā¦ ]
Shite. Aye. Had my leanings toward being that bottom from the start, and youāre only makin it more desirable. ŃŠ¾ŠæŃŃŠ½ <- That you then, my Talik?
Lucky for your Vevay, Iād say, do say, and shall carry on in speaking. >.>
2/?
Trample me, Talik. š„“š§”
Take that velvet for yrself, ready and waiting.āØāØ
Youāll do this for your Vevay? š„ŗš§”
3/?
Thatād be me right there, 42 as of this very year, third of March. Puts me as a Pisces and then thereās yourself as a [ ā¦ ] Cancer, yeah?
(Factās disclosure being Iāve no stake in zodiac and its signs as a way of telling truths. Just thereās a meme culture around it pleases me and thereās no one can fault me taking hands with another man of the water, ey?)
Crab and a fish, not so bad Iām thinking. c;
Also fairnessās sake, Iād notāve guessed 45 for yourself. Nearbouts maybe, only for the fact you embody the DILF vibes to a āt,ā but jesus lord almighty you keep yourself pristine.
Worth saying youād have my affections were this not the case. Worth saying again you had me before I glimpsed a single image of yourself.
Worth saying as well, youāve done good work, Vitaly, real good work, and thereās a middle aged twink wants that body all upon me, ah fuck.
4/?
First off being that I like the thought of reaching over, shifting just a little maybe stretching out an arm and finding my Talik there, sound and solid, true.
This, presuming Iād not be wrapped around yourself in the first place. Fairās fair in warnings, and best you know that right alongside the snoring, Iām a man who clings.
[ ā¦ ]
Iāve fondness for the way you said it. Calling like reaching out. Fingers crossed it wonāt be needed for so long, but aye Talik, next time Iāve overmuch moroseness or malaise and youāre distant, youāll find yourself enduring a cell phoneās ring.
Canāt say itās not added incentive, the thought of your voice wrapped up with drowsing.
Trust your Vevay and know Iāve no meaning to abuse the privilege! Just to say, thatād be an added bonus, itself. c;
5/5
First point being, thereās no chance of necessity looking ugly on you, Talik. Iād wager thereās nothing enters your orbit and self that can keep a dispiriting appearance, hey?
Second and equal in import being I could live with you, that and more besides, and hold you in esteem all the while.
I could and will, given the glimmer of a chance.
Put it this way, Talik. Though Iāve no talent for bloodied hands, Iāve knowledge of what Scarface and the Shitheads get themselves up to. (Been offered a job or two myself, but eh, itās true Iāve not much stomach for it, better placed with production and distribution. Thatās where I can make a mark or two, and thatās where suppositions turn to sense.) Got no mind against a one of em and eh, take Senan for example. Iāve a good idea what the man gets up to, and itās dinged not an ounce of my fondness for him.
Fact is, I admire a man stands by his principles.
I admire a man whoāll work them into being, one way or another. And itās as you say, thereāre times reasonās not enough, times kindness speaks a lost cause. Times thereās weighing to be done regarding crimes against a one versus crimes driven onto many.
Or. [ ā¦ ] Crimes driven onto children.
That alone opens the field for methods and means. That aloneās cause for seeking response whatever way the fucksāll hear.
And of course and twenty times over, fuck the government with an outsized glass shafted dildo, and without a drop of lube.
You hear me well, Talik. On generosity, on methods preferred. And I hear you yourself, and hear as well that call of whatās sometimes got to be. Thereās fucks on this earth call harm down on theirselves. Thereās fucks wonāt learn from any other angle.
Here, and whatās also for saying
Iāve belief my Talik can do all, whatās kindest as well as whatās needed where kindness trips itself. I believe as well thereās no act can change the tenor of my Talikās heart, aye. Thereās nothing could make you other than beautiful, nor other than beautiful in your Vevayās eyes and knowing.
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Here, this is an example just today. They're in an argument, Senan and Darius, because of this [...] brotherhood they have. Darius is hurt Senan doesn't care to tell everyone and also because he kept it to himself for so long - which, I can blame neither of them for these feelings. No one likes to feel so rejected, eh?
But also, no one likes Darius's family. No one likes the people around Darius who aren't us and Enri. They're all terrible people he inherited from terrible people. And also, Darius has been volatile because of the drugs.
A note, here: He's angry or hurt, maybe, I didn't tell him about Sergiy, either. I do feel badly for this, and I thought many times perhaps I could reach out to him, but -
I'll tell you, and this remains between us? I didn't want him around Sergiy. Not with his Pups, not with cocaine. I didn't want to have to tell him this and perhaps begin another fight. I love Darius like a brother, so I do as I would do with my brothers: I don't tell him until he's ready to be in my life, and Sergiy's.
I did much this with Maksym -
A story for another time.
For now, this, with Senan.
So, Senan makes a joke, Darius makes a joke, suddenly everyone's angry and I think maybe neither one was joking. Or Senan was being thoughtless? I don't know with either of them. They don't talk. Senan leaves [...] how is it.
In a huff.
I've actually only seen him angry so perhaps four times, so this must be something causing friction for a while.
Well. Do you see how I mean, Vevay? They're idiots.
You aren't. I feel this: you are smart. Maybe you aren't a genius, but I wouldn't leave my son in the care of a genius. Look at those two. They're dangerous to themselves and everyone else.
I would leave him with someone intelligent and sensible.
And fun, like a twink!
You can teach him how to have fun. He's growing very solemnDo you see, Š·ŃŃŠŗŠ¾Š²ŠøŠ¹? You're perfect.
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But you, Nova!
If you continue to speak of my boyfriend this way, I'll have to do something to stop you speaking.
Or using your hands to type.
[...]
ŠŠ¾Š¶Šµ Š¼ŃŠ¹.
This is a thought I have to live with all day.
This, and velvet.
Why do you want to torture me, eh? Haven't I been very sweet to you? If I trample or anything else to you, it might only instigate you to do more of this to me.
Nova, please, ŠŗŠ¾Ń Š°Š½ŠøŠ¹ - let me survive two more days here. When I'm in Berlin, you can say anything you want to me.
[...]
And!
I'm suffering, which is very bad for Ukrainian morale, isn't that so?
It's true, I swear this to you. No blow for Ukrainians is a blow for Russia.
Do you want to help the Russians win?
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!!!!
Terror n horror and ah no!! Talik no!
Canāt be having that, not the least!
My Talik suffering, and myself here playing aid to Russia? Canāt be withstood! Cannot be permitted, not a moment longer!
Aye, from here to Berlin, this twink shall endeavour his very utmost to veer off from suggestives, with nary a mention of either velvet or trampling, nor even of how fevered Iād turn with my hands caught up in yours. Itās a weighty and a noble duty Iāve before me, and no easy keeping, but for my Talik and for Ukraine, I take this task and count myself honoured!
(Eh, well and if this one Ukrainian and I mean of course the very same whoās my boyfriend, if he can wait it out these two days and then beyond, heāll be getting all the blowing he can handle, get you primed and ready and weāll see what chance Russiaās got then, hey? c;)
Right, right right right that there was the last of it. Chaste thoughts now. Chaste Vevay now, taking up monastic living!
Ayeā¦ Until Berlin. šš§”
2/3
Heard their siblinghood just recently, myself. Or just recently heard it sober enough for comprehension. Senās said he mentioned the fact some years back, only I was off world at the time, you get my meaning and so I kept no knowing of it.
[ ā¦ ]
Makes a kind of sense, ey? Wouldnātāve put two and two together on my own devices, but itās quite the āhow the fuckād I miss thatā looking backward.
The way Sen tells it and Iām inclined to believe, there being some matters Wilco hisself wonāt jest over, Darius took the news well and better than. Strange thing, Iād call it, only I gather thereāve been changes wrought in our little lord n saviour, and the two of em were near enough like brothers themselves, anyrate. Guess as well itādāve been welcome having a brother who aināt [ ā¦ ] eh, you know the shite.
Christ. Menace of a family, thatās sure. Canāt say Iāve blame for Sen in the least, keeping that secret close and held. And thereās what you said on Darius, him being a wreck waiting to happen every moment, least for a shite of a long while there.
[ ā¦ ]
Right so, Sen bein that kind of vexed and Sen leaving out from a conversation unfinished, thatās all a certain kind of telling. Might be not so surprising, this case.
Thing is itās about the worst time to be jesting or half jesting around his parentage. His mum, Moira, aye? Weāre coming up on the anniversary of her passing. [ ā¦ ] Never a breezy time for Senan to start with. It, eh. When it happened [ ā¦ ] her passing, it near destroyed him, and that grieving visits him still. Thereāve been years he turned recluse for a week, straight disappeared.
ā¦Poor sod canāt even drink it quiet this time round, what with his liver and all.
Point is itād be a piss poor time for raising talk of the man abandoned Sen and Moira both. Worse still, like, for bringing her name among those rancid folks you spoke of, they that Darius inherited.
Moira deserved better than fking Darcy Scarlett or any other man brought to her door. Deserves better than her name run through the muck, and Sen deserves better than hearing that same catastrophe.
[ ā¦ ]
Suppose it bears saying Iāve no solid sense if it is or aināt cause here. Christ knows the two of them have years of exploits for growing quarrels from, and the whole matterās thorned.
Just, eh. Itās one element about the air.
3/3
Expanding on that, how're you doin in the midst of that shitshow, Talik? The two of them get to arguing, it can arse up the moods of all present, and nay I won't feign I'm not speakin from experience.
I've naught but respect for your keepin Sergiy quiet from Deimos, and Deimos far from Sergiy. Got to protect your son, aye, and once Darius gets going there's no chance protecting anyone.
Such was the case, anyrate. Can't speak for no, as I've no experience with this sobriety getting married new leaf state, save what I've glimpsed in the group chats.
What was it happened with Maksym? Eh if you're of a mind for saying. Don't know if that'd be an awkward thing for talking whilst you're around him and family and all.
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[...]
In fairness, however, I did some of it to myself by thinking of stopping you from speaking badly of my Vevay.
You kneeling for me, your hands in one of mine, mouth too occupied to say such things.
[...]
Better still, sharing the act. Letting me do the same for you. Would you like this? It could keep both of us from talking.
[...]
I need practice. It's been nine or ten years.
But you'll let me practice on you, Vevay, isn't that so? It can be very devotional, like communion - your body on my tongue.
[...]
There. That's the last of it.
And I am going to have a moment in the shower. A long moment.
It should be warm by now.I'll respond to the rest after.
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